This past week I slipped back into a space with a person who I knew I should not have been with or around. I was sooo mad at myself for days and I thought God was truly done with me this time. You may think that back sliding is nothing, but when you came so far and you know God has set you free, it hurts when you slip up. I had to acknowledge I was wrong, acknowledge I needed forgiveness, but most importantly acknowledge I am a sinner. Prior to my mishap, I thought I was in full control of myself. I thought I conquered this “thing” and I would never ever go back to it because I was miss strong and wise. It wasn’t until after I beat myself up about it did I realize, you slipped because you were in control and you never let God take over Kylie; you thought you could handle it all alone.
This hit me hard because I realized when it came to that situation, I depended solely on my strength and will power. I made God get behind me and I thought I was showing him how things were done. It wasn’t until I messed up that I realize, I had it all wrong. I needed God all up in that area of my life and I couldn’t defeat it without him. I honestly think he knew I was going to go there and he let me..just to show me who was really in charge.
Let me tell you. I know how it feels to think you know, but find out you’re a hot mess just like the rest of us. I know how it feels to take on this cocky roll of thinking you overcame it all and you don’t need to pray that temptation away because it’s done for you. For many, you may have defeated things, but for most prayer and constant rebuking of those sinful ways is the only way to ensure you won’t touch, grab, kiss, spend time with, spend money on, or think about that thing that is keeping you in bondage.
I like to admit I’m a sinner and I was wrong because that is the only way to overcome what you did. God wants you to keep it real. The reason I was in what I was in was because I didn’t keep it real. I didn’t tell God that I was still in love and if I had the chance to backslide I don’t know what I would have done. I said no God I got it, if he calls I may or may not answer. The truth was God had my answer and if I wasn’t miss know it all I wouldn’t be begging for forgiveness now. I challenge you this week to let God get all up in your business, even with things you think you have conquered. You need his help to stay strong and you need his help to show you his grace and mercy should you go take a bite of that forbidden fruit. Just remember, Jesus died so we can be free and be forgiven. We are not slaves to that mess we must first admit though that we don’t have it all together and we are still recipients of the sinners awards! Stay real and stay forgiven. God loves you.
Thank you for reading, I'm sooo excited that I have a steady audience each Sunday. As long as I reach one it is well with my soul. If there are any ladies interested in a group called Pinky Promise and you are in the Pittsburgh area emails me at firstname.lastname@example.org for me information. We had a meeting this week at my house and God was all up in it!. I'm soooo happy. Thank You also for buying my book, I have to order more copies but you can order through me from this website or email me. I can also be reached via instgram @prettykylie. Thank You sooo much and email for ANYTHING. I'm friendly and I'm here for you.